phoenix

Yesterday was the best day of my life. It was a perfect day. Don’t get me wrong, perfect days aren’t those in whitch nothing goes wrong, birds sing and you make out with -insert name of hot chosen celebrity-. No, those days don’t exist. A perfect day is the one you have problems but you solve them without losing it. It’s the one things go wrong but you don’t even care cause the rest of the things that did go well are so damn awesome that those little flaws of life doesn’t even matter anymore. These are perfect days for people like me. I’m a perfectionist; things have to be perfect for me, if they have the tiniest little flaw that makes me unbelievably unhappy. So I’m usually never happy, I wonder in a space between anger, self-loathing and don’t cares. Life’s not good. But today it is, it was yesterday and probably it’s the beginning of a life full of happy days. Maybe not happy, cause you can’t be really happy for a long time but fulfilling, or at least simply good days.

As from yesterday I live alone, all by myself, in my own apartment…well, basement, but it really doesn’t matter because it’s simply amazing. All the doubts I had, all the fear, the anger, the uncertainty…all is gone now. All I want to do is start living again. I thought that my life was on pause and that now it was going to start again. But my life wasn’t on pause, my life was dead and like a phoenix it’s reborn from its ashes and becoming a new self. I have a new life now, a greater life. And I have to live up to the expectations of this new and amazing life.

There’s a lot of people that I might disappoint if I don’t do this right, first of all me, then my parents, if I mess this up they won’t ever give me another chance so as from now I have to be a greater version of me, the best I can be or even more cause I owe them and me that.

So I’m soared, have no internet, my TV is on a box and my phone doesn’t work but I’m as happy as anyone can be.

Life was such a bitch but now it’s just good…plain, simple, old good and that is absolutely amazing.